Perfection

I have the strange tendency to always want to strive for perfection. If somebody says you should do this, this and this way, I save it onto my harddisk and remember it... I will always try to incorporate 'critique' into my further actions. Would this be for my drivers lisence or in a relationship, I save 'critique' and try to do it better next time. In general, this is a nice thing, since it makes you develop and grow. But it also puts a lot of pressure on yourself, always wanting to do it 'right'. Especially since you probably will never do it entirely 'right'.
It also makes me very insecure sometimes, since I do not leave much room for myself to make mistakes. Moreover, I am afraid of being judged for the mistakes I make. I have the tendency to feel like I will not only fail myself, but mainly others by making mistakes. But the real question is, what is a mistake and how should you fix it, or even if you have to fix it at all. Anybody can make mistakes or do something in a way other people don't like. I just have no clue where to draw the line and not be so hard on myself...

(Un)certainty

I do not know if I have already posted this here, but my time as a telephonic travel agent will come to an end in November/December. It's a shame really, because working there was real fun :) But this also means I have to find myself a new job, which is not that easy. So, this comes with a lot of uncertainty, since I kinda really need a job on the side [especially if I want to buy some new shoes ;) or a new dress, or... :P]

Although this makes life a bit more uncertain, there are things I am certain of :) Like my love and affection for certain people, for whom I would do anything :)
It's a strange kind of feeling, that even though some people violated my trust so much I still do trust people. And even though I sometimes feel vulnerable, I'm not as damaged by my experiences as I thought. And for that I am very thankful. Just as I am thankful for your love :)

PS I love this kind of weather, at least when it does not rain :p

Studying abroad

WooW... I got accepted to study abroad for half a year

...in...

Osaka (Japan).

WoW! :D I have to be accepted by Osaka too, but to me that is just a formality since the university thinks I am suitable to the OUSSEP programme. This totally rocks, but also means I am away from the end of March till the end of July next year. Probably will go at the beginning of March and go travel in the area. So, this means I have to dig up my Japanese and research all the cool stuff I can see in Japan and the region :) Because if time permits it I will certainly try to see as much of Japan as possible...

WooW... :)

A fresh new start...

A few weeks back I started with a fresh new semester at the university. I only have to get 20 ects and than I will have my bachelors degree! :D I also applied for an exchange programme with the Osaka University. At this point I do not now even if I have a chance, because it is not clear whether there is a space starting April next year. I do hope so :D But at least I have applied :)

Furthermore, there is one day left of my board membership and than...it is party time ^___^ In addition to the board stuff and my study I also have taken some more drivers license lessons and I work about 20 hours a week as a telephonic travelling agent of some sort :) Because of all this I am dead tired right now, because I have to do sooo much stuff, not so funny anymore. Luckily I'm going to my parents next weekend, to chill out ^_^

Hoshi out~

Noorderzon/Bommen Berend

Wednesday I went to Noorderzon with Runa! I've never been to Noorderzon, so it was a completely new experience :) I enjoyed it a lot, even so much that on Thursday I went again with Jette. There was even a nice band at the Dok in the evening, so we had a lot of fun too ^____^ Next year I will definitly go again!

I also have never ever been to Bommen Berend (the celebration of the liberation of Groningen), even though I have lived in Groningen for 10 years. So Friday evening I crashed at Jette's after work and together with Tijo we went to see the fireworks at the Drafbaan, where we met two other friends of Jette (Hans and Hans ;)). The fireworks were really lovely to see! The only disappointment was that it began to rain before the show was over. But with five people under an umbrella, it was very cozy! ;) Afterwards we went out in the city which was a lot of fun too. I need to convince Jette to do this more often :p The only downside was that working with a headache is not recommendable XD

"I've been thinking about you"

London beat. 'Nuff said :p

Prince charming

Last week somebody asked me: have you met your prince charming yet? My answer: I do not believe in prince charming, so: no.... I do not believe in the white horse and the happily (n)ever after ;) What I do believe in? Love. I think love can conquer a lot of things. But definitely not everything. Love is sometimes live and let go.

It is a harsh reality to be living life in anywayz... It never goes the way you planned (or hoped/wished for...I do not believe in planning everything :p). My own wishes are sometimes simple, I wish he would call, and sometimes impossible, I wish my nephew did not have a life threatening disease. You have to pick yourself up and keep going, enjoying the things life does have to offer for you. As for me, you can make me happy by just letting the sun shine and to be kind as I am to others. I ask nothing more and nothing less. What you give, you should get in return is my motto. One of the others is: practice what you preach. There is nothing more frustrating than people who say one thing but do the other...